Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Waiting...

I'm not used to posting without pictures.  I always figured that's what kept people's attention.  With so many other blogs to read, why stop at one with nothing to see?  What fun would that be?  So I completely understand if you decide to move on.  There just aren't any pictures that go with this post.

I've been reluctant to share this with you, but what kind of friend would I be if I didn't?  As most of you know, I'm pregnant with a baby boy, due at the end of January.  Well, last week I had some complications that landed me in the hospital.  After a brief stay, the docs sent me home on moderate bed rest.  I'm supposed to stay off of my feet as much as possible.  Obviously, these doctors don't know me very well.  Rest?  Off of my feet?  What? Huh?  I don't know how to do that.  Never have.  It's not in my nature.  But of course as all of you mothers out there know, there is nothing we wouldn't do for our children.  So I've been a good patient and taking the advice of my caregivers.  It's not easy, especially being  worried about the well-being of my baby.  Up until now time seemed to be going by pretty fast.  Once school started and the schedules began, time was zipping by.  Now, time.is.standing.still.  Boredom has set in and I'm starting to think the big day will never get here.  Of course, I don't want it to get here too soon.  That would not be good!  I'm going on the assumption that my little guy will stay in and cook until he's well-done.

Rich and the girls have been wonderful  - doing the laundry, cleaning and cooking.  My wonderful mother has been bringing meals over almost every day.  And my sweet friends and family are checking in on me all the time.  I still haven't gotten used to the idea of resting.  It's so hard to sit here and look around at everything that needs to be done.  But I'm doing it nonetheless.  Thank goodness for the internet!  I've been catching up on all of your wonderful blogs and browsing all of my favorite sites, like Houzz, BHG, HGTV and others, getting lots of great decorating ideas.  Great for someone who loves home decor and decorating, right?  Except now I feel a strong sense of urgency to replace everything around me - a lamp here, a rug there, a new mirror for my dresser, a new nightstand (hoping now that Rich is not reading this at work...)

Patience is not something that has ever come easy to me.  When I want something, I want it now.  Which is why I'm not in charge of the money around here.  Yet I sit here and wait.  Wait for extra money to finish my bathroom.  Wait for All My Children to come on.  Wait for the kids to get home from school, so I have some company.  But most importantly, I wait for Cole.  Every week - as excruciatingly long as it may seem - matters desperately to me now.  My baby gets bigger and stronger with each passing day.  So hold on my sweet boy.  You are not ready to come out yet.  Mommy will do everything I need to do to make sure you are safe.  I love you so much already, and I can't bear the thought of you being born now.  It's too soon...

A special thank you to Terri and Gloria - two wonderful friends I met through blogging and who I thank God for every day.  What you two have done for me - listening, praying - I will be eternally grateful.  I know that our Lord is in charge and that His plan for me and Cole have been in place long before I even knew I would have another baby at this stage in my life.  I gain comfort from Him and know that I am surrounded by His peace and love.

35 comments:

Terri said...

It always sounds so good..."bed rest", doesn't it? But I was on bed rest the last few weeks with my son and it was so darn hard to stay still!!

Hoping that you are a better patient then I was and that your boy-o comes on time and healthy!
God bless!

Kim @ Savvy Southern Style said...

Kim, you and I are just alike in so many aspects. I am so impatient and not good at resting either. I was on bed rest the last month with my first. It was impossible really. I was up and doing things while my husband was at work. I even was two weeks late and that got real old. I sure hope he doesn't come this early. Hang on little Cole and like mommy said finish cooking.
I also watch All My Children.

Melissa Miller said...

Oh no Kim! I'm sorry and I am praying for you and Cole. You will both be just fine. I just know it. I do understand about having no patience. That is me as well. Sigh....:)

Come by anytime and say Hi if you are bored. I'll have a few new postings and a great giveaway coming up next week too.

Blessings, ~Melissa :)

Happy To Be/ Gl♥ria said...

Oh Honey, I know how hard this is on you and your family...But just remember every minute of each day that you can keep him safe will let his little lungs devlope more...as you know I just when through the same thing with my grand daughter and she was so bore...but girl the day Landen James was born and I seen the look of love on her face all the months of bed rest was so worth it...
My prayers are so with you girl and I know you can do it Hey your Kim the wonder girl remember?? God gave you this time for you and your baby..so lay back rest and continue baking that Cole...I will stop by and see you some more girl..Thank you for letting us know how your doing..Hey we don't need any pictures to see your pain...Hugs and smiles Gl♥ria

Linda @ A La Carte said...

I know this must be so hard for you! But you are right there isn't anything we Mom's wouldn't do for our children. Sweet Cole is growing and developing and all you have to do is wait! So hard I know but prayers are lifting your and Cole up right now! Blessings to you.

Kimberly said...

what is your due date? How much longer do you have??? Enjoy catching up on your tv shows! you know alot of shows are on line now. Are you watching Nate Berkus - or that new show TALK???

Penny @ The Comforts of Home/Lavender Hill Studio said...

Sending your prayers and hugs from afar Kim! I know things will work out perfectly...
xoxo
Penny

Victoria said...

Awwww, that little muffin needs to bake a while longer! I had bedrest for just a week when I was preg with my first and it was brutal...no internet at that time either. Hang in there and hopefully the time passes quickly for you:) Maybe you can do a craft or someone can get you some jigsaw puzzles??? Those always make time pass!

Jemsmom said...

God has wrapped that sweet boy in grace and in love. He will hang in there until it's time. You hang in there! I think I would go crazy! I would be an internet junkie and I would catch up on my Young and the Restless and the Real Housewives! I am so bad! You take care of yourself and that little one. He will be here before you know it! Sending prayers your way!

Vanessa said...

Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us! I think it is so important that if we do this blogging thing that we can be transparent and also do "real life" together! I will be praying for all of you and especially for the little bun in your oven! He needs to be nice and toasty! :-)
Vanessa

Rene said...

Bed rest, to me, sounds like a good thing when you are going a million miles an hour. From experience, I know that it gets old. I had pre-clampsia with our oldest and had to stop everything. Enjoy this time because when the little one comes, no rest for you :)

By the way, I hope you share you great decor ideas.

-Rene

Emily Joyce said...

Praying that you and Cole stay safe. It is nice sometimes to sit back and do nothing, but not when you're forced to and it definitely gets old fast!

Marla @ Always Nesting said...

Oh, how well I know how you feel. Bless your heart and Cole's heart but mama, you've got to rest. I think about you often and you are such a sweet, sweet blogging buddy and I'm praying for you. So hold on, you'll be up and going a mile a minute once Cole is born. Big hugs, Marla

Glenda/MidSouth said...

Yes - bed rest can get old real quick. Sweet Cole hang on and finish baking. :) Keep a note pad and pen handy and jot down things you want to do, ideas, etc., and now is a good time to "blog hop". :D

Mid-Atlantic Martha said...

Oh sweetie! Waiting is so hard! Praying for you and little Cole. Keep us posted.

Paula said...

Bed rest, oh my. Hang in there. I hope that the time passes quickly for you.

Deb {Confessions of an Ugly Mom} said...

Hugs to you, Kim, and prayers for each of you. You know He promises to never leave us without his love and strength -- keep holding on to that promise.

Love,
Deb

Tracy's Trinkets and Treasures said...

I know it will be so hard waiting and resting, but you can do it and I just know everything will be ok. We would all love to hear from you on your blog even without photos because your followers care about you. I will say a prayer for you tonight. (((hugs)))

Rebecca said...

I put myself on bedrest for the last 8 weeks of the twins 38.5 week gestation and was nuts by the end!!! The only way I got through it was to repeatedly tell myself that my most important job was to incubate...positive self-talk got me through. God, that sounds corny!

Tricia said...

Oh honey, I am sorry that I have not been around. I am saying a prayer right now for you and Cole.
Take care of yourself(ves).

big hugs.
xo*t

The Polka Dot Closet said...

Of course we will read a blog, even if it does not have pictures! Maybe you could use the time to make lists of everything you want to do after the baby comes. Oh, I would not like bed rest either, but there is no choice here! I know, take pictures of your toes!! That would be cute! Wishing you the best and a lot a rest!

Carol

Ellen said...

I am sorry you are stuck....for a bit...take care of you! smiles..

mdb said...

Asking you to rest is like asking the sun not to rise. You have more energy then anyone I know. If you're not in motion, you feel like you are not accomplishing anything.

BUT, consider the following from my favorite book....(Matthew that is:)

Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30

Here's another one

Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth

Psalm 46:10

Cole will be here soon enough, and there will be no rest for a long time. You'll look back though and know that by doing nothing but resting, you will have achieved your greatest accomplishment.

Jan @ bobbypins boardwalk said...

I am sure that bedrest my be very challenging for you, Kim. Perhaps God is helping you learn to lean on other for help and support -- one of the very hardest things for many people to do, including me.

I can hear in through your writing that you know this is for the best and that you are bending to this situation, and I'm really proud of you because I know it isn't easy.

Would you like a prayer on your behalf entered on my blog? If so, please let me know how you would like it phrased. In the meantime, I will say a prayer that you remain at peace, calm and pleasantly surprised at all a person can learn from sitting/laying and watching. God will provide you with entertainment, I have no doubt.

fairfieldhousenj.com said...

Kim,

I understand how hard it is to rest when there are things that need doing. But know that you are DOING the most important thing by resting.
I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Your Friend,
Deborah

Kathy said...

Hello Kim,
I am so glad that you're taking your doctor's advice. I didn't have any of those concerns with my three. My youngest daughter wanted to cook too long - they had to induce! But, I always considered pregnancy a precious time between mother and child. This is the time they are all yours - close to your heart. What a wonderful and amazing thing God gave us to become mothers. Time will go by - your baby boy will come then it will seem time is accelerating! Rest as much as you can, read as much as you can, explore the Internet...all the while God is watching over you and we'll be praying for you!
God Bless,
Kathy

Joan said...

I do want you to know that I do think of you often and I will keep you in my prayers.

Susan said...

I had to do that with my very first pregnancy, back in the days before ultrasound, I wasn't all that far along. It was horrible for me, I had to drop out of College classes at the time, and was living far away from friends and family. That pregnancy did not come to term, but I have 3 beautiful children since. Since they grew older I went back to school and into health care. After my studies, I can honestly say Holy cow!! The human body is an amazing complicating unit, even from the time of the egg, all the changes it goes through, and then the fetus, and so on. With medical technology the way it is today, they catch things sooner, and are able to save or fix things faster.

so...

KEEP POSITIVE!
STIMULATE YOUR MIND (so you aren't dwelling on the health or you or the baby)
HAVE PLENTY OF FACES AROUND

Maybe learn to knit or crochet or do cross stitch or do some light scrapbooking...all can be done sitting down.

I am sending much positive, healing, and comforting energy your way.

come visit:
http://piecesoffatesusan.blogspot.com/2010/10/tuesday-er-um-thursdaytreative-been.html

I have a surprise for you:) (and it was up before your post was)

Susan

marty (A Stroll Thru Life) said...

Oh I so understand. I was on bed rest with both my boys. So hard, and you really don't want to deliver early. So mind the Dr.'s. You asked about my camers. I use a Kodak V1073. It is just a point and shoot. It really does take great pics and I need that. Hugs, Marty

Kim said...

Hi Kim,
I read your post and all kinds of memories came flooding back. My heart goes out to you and the precious baby you are carrying. I had to be on complete bedrest while I was pregnant with my son Ryan. As a precaution I spent 5 months in the hospital before he was born for his safety and mine. Gladly I can tell you that everything turned out fine. My son will be 22 this November, so rest all you can and take care of that gift from God.
Kim@lettersfromtheshore.

Linda said...

Hi Kim~ I know it is hard to be on bedrest, but it is so worth it... I was on bedrest part of my pregnancy with my second son who was born at 31 weeks. I did a lot of reading, TV watching (no internet back then) and I took up cross stitch and made a stitchery for his room~ a big dinosaur~ they were big back then LOL! When I see the stitchery now, I am reminded of that time. My son is 28 years old now... I will be keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers as little Cole grows each day! XOXO

Tanna at The Brick Street Bungalow said...

Kim, I will hold you and Cole in my prayers. My grandson's middle name is Cole!

A mother's love is so incredibly strong. I know without a doubt, as hard as this bedrest is, you will be able to do what you need to do. If I were near, I'd try to share my love of knitting with you... it is amazingly therapeutic!

May God bless and keep you and all of yours...

Anita @ GoingALittleCoastal said...

I'm with you Kim, not very good at waiting! But it's a bit easier knowing why you have to wait. Cole is a pretty grand reason! And I love the name, I didn't know you had picked one out. Just remember, it won't be long and you will have that sweet little baby in your arms.

Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) said...

Oh! What a beautiful, heartfelt post! And what's so bad is that I am so late in reading it!!! Especially since you are so kind and mentioned me! You and Cole will be fine -- I told you my prayer group is VERY STRONG! :) And you just must have patience. Cole will be here in a few months, and then you will be LONGING to be able to lie in bed! :)
Love,
Gloria xxoo

Pamela said...

Hope you two are doing better! He will be here before you know it and it will all just be a distant memory!