Waiting...

I'm not used to posting without pictures.  I always figured that's what kept people's attention.  With so many other blogs to read, why stop at one with nothing to see?  What fun would that be?  So I completely understand if you decide to move on.  There just aren't any pictures that go with this post.

I've been reluctant to share this with you, but what kind of friend would I be if I didn't?  As most of you know, I'm pregnant with a baby boy, due at the end of January.  Well, last week I had some complications that landed me in the hospital.  After a brief stay, the docs sent me home on moderate bed rest.  I'm supposed to stay off of my feet as much as possible.  Obviously, these doctors don't know me very well.  Rest?  Off of my feet?  What? Huh?  I don't know how to do that.  Never have.  It's not in my nature.  But of course as all of you mothers out there know, there is nothing we wouldn't do for our children.  So I've been a good patient and taking the advice of my caregivers.  It's not easy, especially being  worried about the well-being of my baby.  Up until now time seemed to be going by pretty fast.  Once school started and the schedules began, time was zipping by.  Now, time.is.standing.still.  Boredom has set in and I'm starting to think the big day will never get here.  Of course, I don't want it to get here too soon.  That would not be good!  I'm going on the assumption that my little guy will stay in and cook until he's well-done.

Rich and the girls have been wonderful  - doing the laundry, cleaning and cooking.  My wonderful mother has been bringing meals over almost every day.  And my sweet friends and family are checking in on me all the time.  I still haven't gotten used to the idea of resting.  It's so hard to sit here and look around at everything that needs to be done.  But I'm doing it nonetheless.  Thank goodness for the internet!  I've been catching up on all of your wonderful blogs and browsing all of my favorite sites, like Houzz, BHG, HGTV and others, getting lots of great decorating ideas.  Great for someone who loves home decor and decorating, right?  Except now I feel a strong sense of urgency to replace everything around me - a lamp here, a rug there, a new mirror for my dresser, a new nightstand (hoping now that Rich is not reading this at work...)

Patience is not something that has ever come easy to me.  When I want something, I want it now.  Which is why I'm not in charge of the money around here.  Yet I sit here and wait.  Wait for extra money to finish my bathroom.  Wait for All My Children to come on.  Wait for the kids to get home from school, so I have some company.  But most importantly, I wait for Cole.  Every week - as excruciatingly long as it may seem - matters desperately to me now.  My baby gets bigger and stronger with each passing day.  So hold on my sweet boy.  You are not ready to come out yet.  Mommy will do everything I need to do to make sure you are safe.  I love you so much already, and I can't bear the thought of you being born now.  It's too soon...

A special thank you to Terri and Gloria - two wonderful friends I met through blogging and who I thank God for every day.  What you two have done for me - listening, praying - I will be eternally grateful.  I know that our Lord is in charge and that His plan for me and Cole have been in place long before I even knew I would have another baby at this stage in my life.  I gain comfort from Him and know that I am surrounded by His peace and love.